Colon Cancer Sucks Ass

Monday, October 12, 2009

They say time heals all wounds

I haven't looked at Christine's blog in a while. We are pretty much taking it one day at a time. I have had one session with a grief counselor. She gave me several suggestions that I am considering.

We have heard from so many people. I can't even begin to tell you how wonderful it has been to hear how they met Christine or how they followed her blog or went to classes with her, etc , etc. I know for me, it has helped tremendously. We knew that she had reached out to a lot of people but we had no idea what an impact she had made in people's lives. She had a lot of support from her friends and family. After she passed away, we found out that she had been much sicker for longer than we had realized. She kept some things from us because she worried about us. She knew the cancer had returned long before she told us. In fact, she told her friends while she was in the hospital that she worried about her mom. I told her so many times that I would be okay but it didn't stop her. I guess she just wanted to protect me.

I miss talking to her. We spent a lot of time on the phone. She was my "go to" person. I was always asking her stuff, like how do I do this on the computer or would I like that movie or what is that ingredient? I still think occasionally "I have to remember to tell Christine that" and then it hits me.

The holidays are coming up so quickly. I am rather nervous about that. Christine and I love Christmas. We had already been making plans before she passed away. That might seem a little earlier but not for us. We would start e-mailing each other on January 25 to see who could be the first to say only 11 months till Christmas and this went on every month all year long. I am going to try to follow through with those plans. I guess I have to celebrate for both of us.


Christine's Mom